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hear her tinkering around, even when she isn t doing anything physically. Her soft singing, the pages
of her book turning, or even the humming noises she makes when she s asleep.
Cat greets me at the door with a deep meow, as usual. We ve developed some weird
friendship. Emmy used to laugh and say that Cat could recognize someone who needed a friend. Oh
how right she was. I scratch Cat behind the ears and set off to look for her owner.
Em?
Nothing. A flash of apprehension over the situation starts to take over, but I push it aside and
keep looking for her. The apartment isn t huge, but it s large enough that she might not have heard me.
A few minutes later, I realize that she really isn t here. After walking into my bedroom, I sit
on my bed and think about where the hell she could have gone. She doesn t have her car because we
still haven t gotten it back from the cabin. I had Greg and Asher swing down and bring it back,
knowing that, if I got anywhere near that place, I wouldn t be leaving until there was blood on the
ground. Devon said that we could leave it there as long as we needed, and since he wouldn t be back
for a few weeks, I haven t been in any kind of rush. I liked having her dependent on me to get places.
With a deep sigh, I lean back and let my head hit the pillow only to shoot back up when my
head hits something besides the pillow.
I reach out with a shaking hand and pick up the note with my name written in Emmy s flowing
handwriting. I don t want to open it, dreading what could be inside, but if I have any hopes of finding
her tonight, this would be where to start.
Dear Maddox,
I used to think that my love for you would be strong enough for both of us. Some sort of
weird platform that could hold anything you threw at me and never break. I know now that I was
sadly mistaken.
For as long as I ve known you, I ve felt a pull towards you like I ve never known before.
It s no secret now that I haven t had the best of beginnings in my life. Even with all of that in my
past, I still had faith in love. Maybe I just had rose-colored glasses on. I m not sure. But I
wanted to believe that there was some sort of reward to be had for all the bullshit I had to deal
with to get here.
I m only human, Maddox. I m not sure how many times it will take of you pushing me away
before you start kicking me while I m down I bleed just like the rest of us when I fall& only when
I fall at your hands, it hurts just a little more. I fear that I m no longer strong enough to stand
against your continuous rejection to stand on the sidelines and watch you willing to fight for
everyone one else around us to get their slice of happiness.
One thing I know for sure now is that, as much as I wish it were different, I can t keep
begging you to believe in us. I m sure that my heart will undoubtedly always belong to you my
dark prince. But until you can see just how worthy your love is, I m afraid I just don t have a part
in your life.
I want you to know that I m not running. Not from you and not from my life here. But I
can t be around you. When you re in the room, I instantly want to run into your arms and beg you
to let me all the way in. To let me help you carry some of the baggage, slay the demons to let me
help you heal. So, for right now, I m going to get a hotel room and fix my head& and my heart. I
know Cat is in good hands until I can get settled. I m pretty sure she likes you more than me
anyway.
I love you.
I wish you knew how much.
-Em
Her words crash over me, leaving me hollow and alone. I rub my chest, feeling some weird
burn taking over my lungs. She can t just give up. Not my Emmy.
Although, I m not sure why I even doubt that she could. This is, after all, everything I ve been
working towards for years. I pushed her away and refused the love she so desperately wanted to
hand me.
I pace my room, wondering when the hell I m supposed to stop. I refuse to sit here on my ass
when she needs me. She needs me to prove to her that I m going to let her in. I know that, if I don t
make this next move flawlessly, she will never believe that I m willing to give it a go.
Fuck! I bellow, pulling my arm back and slamming it into the wall. The drywall gives way
and I watch my fist sink right through. If anything, it just feeds my mood, makes me want to start
destroying everything until I find her.
I ll fucking turn this town on its ass to find her.
An hour later, I ve basically torn my place apart looking for some kind of clue and I m not any
closer. Her stuff is gone. Everything except the things Cat needs and the lingering sweetness of her
smell is gone. I m coming unglued, and if I don t get some kind of sign soon, I m going to snap.
I throw my body down on the couch and take in the room. Everything is where it was when
we left earlier. The remote is on the table. The magazine she had been flipping through before we
left is sitting in the chair I ve started thinking of as hers. The candles she bought to make my place
smell like a damn apple pie sit unlit on the counter next to the phone&
The phone that isn t on the cradle, where I know I put it earlier. I jump up from the couch and
walk into the kitchen, spying the cordless lying on the counter. With a pleading prayer that maybe this
is the clue I need to figure out where she went, I grab it and press redial.
I know that number.
Sway.
Not wasting a second, I quickly press the on button and wait for him to pick up. God, I hate
this feeling of being out of control of everything around me.
Hello? David s voice comes through the line and I want to scream.
Where is he?
Hello to you too, Maddox, he laughs, getting a growl out of me in return.
Yeah, hello, David& Where is Sway?
He got back a second ago, and I m guessing, since you re calling now, that you re wondering
where Emmy is?
You would be correct, I grind through my clenched jaw.
Hold on. Let me go get him.
I hear him moving around and then speaking softly. I wait, trying my hardest not to snap the
phone in half with the force of my grip.
Well hello there, you sexy man. If only I would have known how popular I would become
tonight. You re lucky we decided to leave in the morning to go to Davey s parent s house. Did you
hear? I m meeting the parents. He sighs deeply, and I growl again, hoping he takes a hint and gets to
the point.
Where is she?
Right to the point, I see. Well, my hunk of silence, she s safe.
He just stops talking, and I m seconds away from blowing up on him. I know he doesn t
deserve my wrath, so I try to push it down.
And fail.
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hear her tinkering around, even when she isn t doing anything physically. Her soft singing, the pages
of her book turning, or even the humming noises she makes when she s asleep.
Cat greets me at the door with a deep meow, as usual. We ve developed some weird
friendship. Emmy used to laugh and say that Cat could recognize someone who needed a friend. Oh
how right she was. I scratch Cat behind the ears and set off to look for her owner.
Em?
Nothing. A flash of apprehension over the situation starts to take over, but I push it aside and
keep looking for her. The apartment isn t huge, but it s large enough that she might not have heard me.
A few minutes later, I realize that she really isn t here. After walking into my bedroom, I sit
on my bed and think about where the hell she could have gone. She doesn t have her car because we
still haven t gotten it back from the cabin. I had Greg and Asher swing down and bring it back,
knowing that, if I got anywhere near that place, I wouldn t be leaving until there was blood on the
ground. Devon said that we could leave it there as long as we needed, and since he wouldn t be back
for a few weeks, I haven t been in any kind of rush. I liked having her dependent on me to get places.
With a deep sigh, I lean back and let my head hit the pillow only to shoot back up when my
head hits something besides the pillow.
I reach out with a shaking hand and pick up the note with my name written in Emmy s flowing
handwriting. I don t want to open it, dreading what could be inside, but if I have any hopes of finding
her tonight, this would be where to start.
Dear Maddox,
I used to think that my love for you would be strong enough for both of us. Some sort of
weird platform that could hold anything you threw at me and never break. I know now that I was
sadly mistaken.
For as long as I ve known you, I ve felt a pull towards you like I ve never known before.
It s no secret now that I haven t had the best of beginnings in my life. Even with all of that in my
past, I still had faith in love. Maybe I just had rose-colored glasses on. I m not sure. But I
wanted to believe that there was some sort of reward to be had for all the bullshit I had to deal
with to get here.
I m only human, Maddox. I m not sure how many times it will take of you pushing me away
before you start kicking me while I m down I bleed just like the rest of us when I fall& only when
I fall at your hands, it hurts just a little more. I fear that I m no longer strong enough to stand
against your continuous rejection to stand on the sidelines and watch you willing to fight for
everyone one else around us to get their slice of happiness.
One thing I know for sure now is that, as much as I wish it were different, I can t keep
begging you to believe in us. I m sure that my heart will undoubtedly always belong to you my
dark prince. But until you can see just how worthy your love is, I m afraid I just don t have a part
in your life.
I want you to know that I m not running. Not from you and not from my life here. But I
can t be around you. When you re in the room, I instantly want to run into your arms and beg you
to let me all the way in. To let me help you carry some of the baggage, slay the demons to let me
help you heal. So, for right now, I m going to get a hotel room and fix my head& and my heart. I
know Cat is in good hands until I can get settled. I m pretty sure she likes you more than me
anyway.
I love you.
I wish you knew how much.
-Em
Her words crash over me, leaving me hollow and alone. I rub my chest, feeling some weird
burn taking over my lungs. She can t just give up. Not my Emmy.
Although, I m not sure why I even doubt that she could. This is, after all, everything I ve been
working towards for years. I pushed her away and refused the love she so desperately wanted to
hand me.
I pace my room, wondering when the hell I m supposed to stop. I refuse to sit here on my ass
when she needs me. She needs me to prove to her that I m going to let her in. I know that, if I don t
make this next move flawlessly, she will never believe that I m willing to give it a go.
Fuck! I bellow, pulling my arm back and slamming it into the wall. The drywall gives way
and I watch my fist sink right through. If anything, it just feeds my mood, makes me want to start
destroying everything until I find her.
I ll fucking turn this town on its ass to find her.
An hour later, I ve basically torn my place apart looking for some kind of clue and I m not any
closer. Her stuff is gone. Everything except the things Cat needs and the lingering sweetness of her
smell is gone. I m coming unglued, and if I don t get some kind of sign soon, I m going to snap.
I throw my body down on the couch and take in the room. Everything is where it was when
we left earlier. The remote is on the table. The magazine she had been flipping through before we
left is sitting in the chair I ve started thinking of as hers. The candles she bought to make my place
smell like a damn apple pie sit unlit on the counter next to the phone&
The phone that isn t on the cradle, where I know I put it earlier. I jump up from the couch and
walk into the kitchen, spying the cordless lying on the counter. With a pleading prayer that maybe this
is the clue I need to figure out where she went, I grab it and press redial.
I know that number.
Sway.
Not wasting a second, I quickly press the on button and wait for him to pick up. God, I hate
this feeling of being out of control of everything around me.
Hello? David s voice comes through the line and I want to scream.
Where is he?
Hello to you too, Maddox, he laughs, getting a growl out of me in return.
Yeah, hello, David& Where is Sway?
He got back a second ago, and I m guessing, since you re calling now, that you re wondering
where Emmy is?
You would be correct, I grind through my clenched jaw.
Hold on. Let me go get him.
I hear him moving around and then speaking softly. I wait, trying my hardest not to snap the
phone in half with the force of my grip.
Well hello there, you sexy man. If only I would have known how popular I would become
tonight. You re lucky we decided to leave in the morning to go to Davey s parent s house. Did you
hear? I m meeting the parents. He sighs deeply, and I growl again, hoping he takes a hint and gets to
the point.
Where is she?
Right to the point, I see. Well, my hunk of silence, she s safe.
He just stops talking, and I m seconds away from blowing up on him. I know he doesn t
deserve my wrath, so I try to push it down.
And fail.
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